先在，想你很多！ 哥， 你正在做什么？ 你好吗？。。。
now i am still hesitating over whether to text to him or not. i don’t know how to express my feeling to him. even on his last birthday, i ended up to tell myself: “no! it’d be better if i don’t text.”
i know i am still stubborn. i know it’s not good to isolate myself from one word spelled as family.