I Still Have a Choice

Life is always like this. I really and really want to give a choice to myself to run away from home. I want to give myself to have a better life. I really want to have a real smile, not something usually be faked and pretended. I know I cannot stand. I cannot stand for something. As this time, as this morning, as at 12:36am, as during that time I usually cannot sleep. I am usually awaked. A black shadow, a cruel sound usually appear to show its actions. I really want to give a choice to myself. To myself to sleep well as well as to keep myself from it. I want to have a normal life like other children. I want to have a life as human being. I know I cannot hide it. My neighbor know it and don’t know how to help. I don’t know too. I don’t know how to choose. I don’t know how to run. I don’t know how to release myself from that shadow. Sometimes I want to ask the world when it goes to the end. I am very tired. I don’t know I am living for what. I really don’t know I am living for what. How much can I stand forward?

10 comments on “I Still Have a Choice”

តា ម៉ាប់ ខែកុម្ភៈ 13, 2012 ម៉ោង 3:42 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប

what the hell is that shadow, kid?
- ស្មៅ ខែកុម្ភៈ 14, 2012 ម៉ោង 9:30 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប
  
  Domestic Violence 😥
  - តា ម៉ាប់ ខែកុម្ភៈ 14, 2012 ម៉ោង 10:40 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប
    
    Who would harm u? Tell me, i will alert some NGOs for u!
    - ស្មៅ ខែកុម្ភៈ 14, 2012 ម៉ោង 11:03 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប
      
      ម៉ាក់ខ្ញុំ! ចង់ទៅប្តឹងទៀតទេ? ទោះប្តឹង ក៏គ្មានលទ្ធផលដែរ ព្រោះមនុស្សវិកល ទោះសម្លាប់មនុស្ស ក៏នៅតែគ្មានទោសដែរ។
      - តា ម៉ាប់ ខែកុម្ភៈ 15, 2012 ម៉ោង 4:00 ព្រឹក ឆ្លើយតប
        
        ចុះមានដែលគិតថាបញ្ជួនគាត់ទៅមន្ទីរពេទ្យទេ ? គិតថាឯងអាចរស់នៅដោយខ្លួនឯងបានហើយ !
        បញ្ជួននេះមិនមែនធ្វើបាបគាត់ទេ តែសង្ឈឹមថាជម្ងឺគាត់អាចធូរស្រាល ឬ ជា ។
        
        ស្មៅ ខែកុម្ភៈ 15, 2012 ម៉ោង 12:50 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប
        
        ធ្លាប់ចង់នាំគាត់ទៅពេទ្យដែរ តែមិនដឹងថា នាំគាត់ទៅតាមណា បើសូម្បីតែចង់នាំគាត់ទៅដើរលេង ក៏គាត់អត់ទៅជាមួយផងហ្នឹង…
Lovepeehs05 ខែកុម្ភៈ 13, 2012 ម៉ោង 7:10 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប

Something strange’s happening there ? I see no shadow no ghost. It’s clear sky ! Isn’t it ?
She’s probably so happy and could not sleep. I think it’s just a normal mood foy young girl. She’s probably wants some candies. That’s it !
- ស្មៅ ខែកុម្ភៈ 14, 2012 ម៉ោង 9:31 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប
  
  Because you were not here. What I could see, you could not.
  - Lovepeehs05 ខែកុម្ភៈ 15, 2012 ម៉ោង 1:58 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប
    
    I could see I could hear your words most of the times. Even you smile or sad, or you broken heart you show us all, right ? How your Valentine’s Day ? Did you see friend from U.S. ? Are you sure that your mom has problem like you have said ? Did your mom freequently visited Angkor Wat during early 1999 ? If she did, I probably did see her there. Did your mom talkative person?
    - ស្មៅ ខែកុម្ភៈ 16, 2012 ម៉ោង 6:10 ល្ងាច ឆ្លើយតប
      
      No. She has never been there for around 20 years.